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Thursday, January 12, 2012,8:24 PM
The Importance of Game Weapons
The weapons in computer games are important in several ways; the
most notable of which is that it completes a game. Try imagining a game without
weapons, would it be fun or no fun? Weapons in computer games have evolved ever
since the first video game was released. Today, most game items that we
consider are weapons are those that look mean or scary or alien-like. But let
us go back in time, why were weapons invented?
First off, we need to define game
weapons. These are items that you can find in any game that are useful to
players. These items will help the player in killing an enemy or finishing a
quest. Moreover, game weapons in computer games must be able to aid the player
in completing and winning the game. The main objective of weapons is not to
make the game easier; rather, game weapons are there to make the game more
challenging, bearable, enjoyable, and attainable.
Through the years that have come,
game weapons have evolved with the development of newer games with improved
graphics and more complicated game plays. From the simple blocks in Tetris and
the mushrooms in Super Mario Brothers; game weapons are now meaner and serve
more purpose. Why do games always have to employ weapons?
First reason: Fun. What is a game
without weapons? Moreover, what is a battle without weapons? Game weapons are
such important factors in making the game more fun. Try playing Mario Kart
without the weapons and just plain racing, it would be boring right? Or, play Grand Chase without using any weapon,
how would it fare?
Second Reason: Challenge. In most
of the games today, battle PvP or PvE are the two most common battles. In any
case, game weapons make the game more challenging. If you can have better
gadget or weapon than your enemies then so can your enemies; this will make
your fight more challenging. If you are playing Counter Strike (no matter the
version), the guns and grenades in the game are what makes it beautiful to
play. If you do not believe this then why not play without any weapon? Let us
see if you can even have fun or survive the game.
Third Reason: Survival. Game
developers today are trying their best to create more visually stunning game
weapons at the same time packing more power to them. Think of World of Warcraft
or MU or Rohan Online. At the same time, game developers also do not want to
overdo their weapons because it will kill the game itself and the whole essence
of challenge. Game makers want to create more advanced games in order to
compete and advance in the current competition. If you have better graphics,
feisty characters and awe-mazing game weapons then you would be the sure leader
in the gaming world.
So, why are game weapons so
important in computer games? Let us just say that in the real world, you cannot
attain success if you do not have your own weapons.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010,7:45 PM
Training on UNCRC Documentation and Monitoring Standards TrainingI have just attended the UNCRC Documentation and Monitoring Standards last April 22-24, 2010. It was a fruitful activity since it deals on the concepts of data collection, monitoring, and consolidation of data for the formulation of the NGO Alternative Report in Mindanao that is to be passed this 2017, as recommended by the UN Committee on the Rights of the Child.
A lot of matters regarding children's situation in Mindanao were opened since we created indicators for the collection of data. We also had tackled about the concepts and principles of rights-based monitoring since we belong to rights-based organizations, delivering services in a child-centered approach.
The activity was participated by the different implementing partners of the Mindanao Action Group for Children's Rights and Protection (MAGCRP) , with Kabataan Consortium Inc. as its host agency. Non-Government Organizations from Davao City, Agusan del Sur, Compostella Valley, Davao Del Sur and Davao del Norte teamed up for the realization of this project.
I also had the chance to meet great teenagers in the said event. Jayson, a 17 year-old guy from Mindanao Coalition for Children's Rights, will be representing Mindanao-Philippines in the ASEAN (Association of South-East Asian Nations) Children's Congress this coming December 2010. I also met Melai, 15 year-old girl from Children's Volunteers Society, was set to attend a Peace Camp for Mindanao. And Rey, focal person of Davao City Children's Alliance for Rights and Protection.
It was a great event and I was able to report and share this to our NGO's Program Director. I pray for more strength and courage that we would be able to realize the plans we had for the protection of the rights of the Filipino Children.
A lot of matters regarding children's situation in Mindanao were opened since we created indicators for the collection of data. We also had tackled about the concepts and principles of rights-based monitoring since we belong to rights-based organizations, delivering services in a child-centered approach.
The activity was participated by the different implementing partners of the Mindanao Action Group for Children's Rights and Protection (MAGCRP) , with Kabataan Consortium Inc. as its host agency. Non-Government Organizations from Davao City, Agusan del Sur, Compostella Valley, Davao Del Sur and Davao del Norte teamed up for the realization of this project.
I also had the chance to meet great teenagers in the said event. Jayson, a 17 year-old guy from Mindanao Coalition for Children's Rights, will be representing Mindanao-Philippines in the ASEAN (Association of South-East Asian Nations) Children's Congress this coming December 2010. I also met Melai, 15 year-old girl from Children's Volunteers Society, was set to attend a Peace Camp for Mindanao. And Rey, focal person of Davao City Children's Alliance for Rights and Protection.
It was a great event and I was able to report and share this to our NGO's Program Director. I pray for more strength and courage that we would be able to realize the plans we had for the protection of the rights of the Filipino Children.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010,3:14 AM
Literary #1: Withered Dream
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WITHERED DREAM
It was just yesterday. I saw life as bright as the flaming ball, I thought before, a falling star to wish upon... I was used to have all the wishes I want to. But all of my wishes were gone as the voices of Denise and Jake echoed in my ears.
"We shouldn't be sacrificing like this for her sake!"
"Please Jeff, forget about us. Samantha has a weak heart and she loves you more then anybody."
Me? Weak? I cannot accept this. For many years of wonderful friendship, I never thought I became so weak that made me crazy over Jake and made me forget Denise's feelings. I was strong! I was brave, brave enough to be alone in this - cozy dark place!
Brett was on the other table. He's alone too. He fixed his eyes on me; he seemed bewildered on why I got hooked on the mugs in front of me. I smiled at him. I do not know why I smiled at him. I was not supposed to give such gesture. I was supposed to be antagonistic. Everyone was dreadful of his presence. But that night, I realized that he's not that bad at all. He was good-looking with all the good features, which almost every other gals long for. He smiled back and walked right through me.
"I'm very glad to see you here Sam." I was not aware that his hands reached my cheeks. "What are these tears doing in your beautiful face?" His eyes were gentle as he wiped off the tears from my eyes. I forgot that I was crying. I forgot the week being inside of me as I faced the man that I disliked the most.
"May I join you?" As though I was mute that I couldn't speak even just a word, I just nodded and looked through his eyes. Those were the eyes, that were filled with angst before, but that night, those were filled with compassion and sympathy. He sat in front of me. "Got a problem with Jake?" His tone was low but emphatic. Instead of answering him back, I gave him a deep sigh and began to sob.
He moved his chair beside me and embraced me. In his arms I found the strength and comfort that I needed that time. I never thought that Brett could be as comforting and gentle as what I've felt in such moment. In our university, he was the professor's bet for expulsion. This year was his last chance to stay. His life was an open book to all. He was so frustrated over his parents' separation. He longed for the reunion of his once happy family. Since then he became delinquent, irresponsible and fierce.
We were classmates in high school. He was the class salutatorian then. And now in college, he was destroying his future, his life through his vices, particularly his recent addiction in drugs. This March, our batch has to leave him because of his back subjects. We were so close before. Our friendship was broken when he started courting me. I was so disgusted because I felt I was betrayed. Since then I treated him like a ghost for almost 6 years now.
I remained yielding to his arms, though as a newborn babe, so restless and helpless. I felt some kind of pain, not from my heart, but from his heart. His friends turned their backs on him, so was I and Denise. About Denise - I don't know how to describe her. But I loved her like a sister, more than a friend. All right, I cannot deny that she's kind and understanding. One thing that I dislike about her was her self-sacrificing attitude. She always gives in to the point that I became so selfish.
"I hate to see you crying Sam. I'm more than willing to listen, maybe that would help."
I was delighted by his concern. I wanted to speak out but I was afraid to tell him everything. I couldn't tell him that I was wrong in loving Jake that much. I knew Jake loved Denise but I refused to believe in such painful truth. I never said a word. I withdrew myself from Brett's embrace. I drank the beer from my mug. That was the very first time I took liquor in my stomach, into my mind, into my soul. I was not contented with the mugs of beer I've drunk. I tried some brandy and vodka; those were my father's favorites. Brett just watched me in my first-ever-heavy-drinking session. He was very moderate in sipping his wine. I was ashamed. I pretended to enjoy the simulated merriment on the dance floor. People were raving to the dazzling disco lights and hiphop beats. I did not notice the sudden transformation of the once cozy place few hours ago where I remain seated and desperate in gulping some alien beverages in my system with my sole spectator, Brett.
"It's dawning. I will take you home." I leaned on the table with my head buried in my arms. He understood that I was helpless and unable to carry myself home. He paid all the bills and carried me to his car. As he fastened the seatbelt around me, I uttered finally, some words of gratefulness; I even told him that I love him. "You're drunk." He smiled. "I'm not, I can event tell you my grade in Syntax, I can also reveal the three castles in my heart!" I mumbled. "You're really drunk, you do not know the words you're saying." This time he laughed.
"I can relate to you all the burden in me, of what had come between me and Denise, of Jake and Denise; of how I realized that I was so stupid in loving Jake like a fool; of how I was so mean to judge the kind of person in you, now that you have made me strong, to face myself, of how selfish I was; of thinking for myself's happiness alone; of hurting Denise and Jake; of hurting my parents and of despising and leaving you in your times of struggles. And now you're here telling me that I'm Drunk!" I muttered and started to cry out loud again.
He sat on his seat and kissed my forehead. "I will drive you home." He started the engine and swiftly we headed to the traffic-free highway. I fell asleep. I can't deny that I was drunk but I really meant what I've said. I was blessed by Brett's presence. It's daybreak, I was drunk. I was dreaming. I was alone in the dark space. There appeared my parents, my friends, Denise and Jake. They were mourning. I smiled at them. I told them that I was fine. I told them that I have found Brett. They beckoned me and led me to the shining door. They all left me as I stepped inside the door.
I saw people. The buildings, the cars - and the gray sports car stalled in one corner was the one where I rode with Brett a while ago, it was surrounded by a mob and the car was empty. Brett's car was crushed by a ten-wheeler truck! I can't believe, these things flashed into my dream. A beautiful light guided me to see myself lying on a hospital bed. I had the respirator connected to my breathing senses. My head was wrapped with bandages. I was motionless, so close to be lifeless. There beside my bed was a man on his wheel chair. His face was wrapped with bandages too, he was unrecognizable. He cried so hard that his tears like a river, freely flowing down to his face bandages. As I looked into his eyes, I was certain that those were Brett's. Those eyes filled with sympathy and compassion now filled with angst. I can see the great despair that he carried in his heart, the sorrow that enveloped his whole being upon watching me unconsciously breathing so hard.
There came the doctor, with my parents, with Denise and Jake. "I was amazed how she struggled this long period of time with her condition, it's been three weeks now, but I'm very sorry, her heart could no longer take that much." The doctor announced.
"Sam, hold on please. Your heart is not weak. You're strong. I need you!" I do not know how to feel. I do not know if I will be a sober too. Brett's words brought such joy inside my innermost being. I am secured that I am cared. I never expected Brett would believe that I am strong. But how can I show my strength, how can I show to them that I am now brave to face life?
They panicked as the horizontal line ran on the respirator's monitor. I was about to face death. I gazed at them and I saw my own death. Tears rolled down to my cheeks. My dream is for real, the withered dream of life in the birth of dawn.
"Sam, hold on please. Your heart is not weak. You're strong. I need you!" I do not know how to feel. I do not know if I will be a sober too. Brett's words brought such joy inside my innermost being. I am secured that I am cared. I never expected Brett would believe that I am strong. But how can I show my strength, how can I show to them that I am now brave to face life?
They panicked as the horizontal line ran on the respirator's monitor. I was about to face death. I gazed at them and I saw my own death. Tears rolled down to my cheeks. My dream is for real, the withered dream of life in the birth of dawn.
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Saturday, April 17, 2010,2:00 AM
Stupidity *pft*It's been more than a year, about 16months or so since I'd been honest to myself.
I have feelings for him. Yeah, that was nuts. But somehow in that journey I had then fate sided on me. I had chances being with him and during those moments everything just seemed so perfect. But it didn't lead us same way. It went complicated. And I thought then that he's not mine, and could never be mine. So I stepped out from that "world of our own", left in silence, concealed the feelings that I really want to share with him, without him knowing.
I went OFFLINE.
I had heard none of him. Days turned weeks. Just pure nothing.
But the memory of him, even the times when I could hear him calling my name, it haunted me. It was not easy. And I hate that.
Months after, I met this guy - Rick. He became a friend, and eventually turned more than that. Later did I realize that I was just seeing him in Rick. The voice perhaps, the weirdness of our connection, the sweetness somehow. I started to hate it, but he showed me more of him so I was falling. Eventually, Rick helped me forget about him.
I stayed OFFLINE.
A year passed, little by little I was noticing that things between me and Rick didn't work out that well. Then it made me think of stuff and some options to get out from that situation. While in deep thoughts, something was knockin in my heart again - gaming. I missed it, just like a child craving for sweets.
So, I tried lurking back ONLINE.
For some moments of chitchats with friends, what I'm really thinking is Holy shit. It's him. And what's happened is I'm staring at his name.
Memories of the past cam rushing in.
No way.
It can't be.
But it did, piece by piece.
I can't believe he's still existing, darn it! That fact that I did try to forget him nailed me, but what struck me more is the damn feeling of regrets and hopes combined. Confusing and Ironic!
And so, there's this smile on my face. If only he knew how I missed him. If only I could bring back the past. Remembering him was one sweet thing to do. But before I could say a word to him, I began to notice this girl who seemed to be the center of his world now. Her name is everywhere, and he keeps looking for her. All my might faded like making me small enough not to be seen so I backed away.
It became the subject of my thoughts lately. Damn! It troubled me deeply. And I said to myself, "Hey! I'm not stupid!" but whenever his way crosses mine, I get to read of him saying stuff about her, then another, and more. Something in my heart isn't working right. I feel like a damn fool whenever I'd try to say anything about this kind of feeling but since he's not aware of it, I ended up working on saying nothing even if it meant locking my being up.
Things are just so different now. But what we had keeps running through my thoughts. Then I began to regret it, why didn't have I the courage to just spill the words he must hear before? The past - there's this other creature inside me who knew a lot more about it but couldn't pull all the evidence together to speak.
Speak now? There's no way. How would he understand? It's been more than a year. I have to remember how our world has changed. But it hurts. These emotions that has been buried into the deep crevices of my heart. These feelings that I once thought better be unsaid, even to my friends. The love that I've struggled to forget. So now, all I can do is try to let it go.
Why am I hurting? I never can quite say as much as I know. But perhaps there's still this longing, yet I can never say what's in my heart to him. Never. I can't be free of all these feelings so I've written this straight from the heart. Teary-eyed. Broken inside.
You are still connected to me. I still want only you.
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The song below reminds me of him before, and up to now.
Damn stupidity!
Saturday, April 10, 2010,4:55 AM
Child Rights Programming Seminar
I just had attended the Child Rights Programming Seminar last April 7-9, 2010 held at St. Benedict Priory Retreat House Ulas, Davao City. The event was hosted by the Mindanao Action Group for Children's Rights and Protection (MAGCRP)."Child Rights Programming" is the title of a regional workshop on methods of incorporating Child Rights approach in organizational programmes. It is centered on the implementation of the Rights Based Approach, defining it along with its principles.
As a child rights advocate. it offered me a better understanding and knowledge on how the 'Convention of the Rights of the Child' can be used as a foundation for programming and as a means for advocacy and change. The overall goals of Child Rights Programming are to improve the condition of children so that they all can fully enjoy their rights, and to build societies that acknowledge and respect children's rights.
Labels: Seminars/Trainings, Youth Concerns
Sunday, December 27, 2009,1:38 AM
ZX Online Union of Two VideosFeatures the entries of the ZX Online Ph Video-Making Event "Union of Two: In-Game Wedding". It's all love! Enjoy!
zAYTie & alphonse
Chonii & Quha
QianZhi & Cyllnde
Wednesday, December 23, 2009,1:34 AM
Cabal Star ng Pasko by ExitializMade by Exitializ Community Credits to: ABS-CBN Station ID's Star ng Pasko Our Entry for CABAL Christmas Video Making Costest Themed "Holiday in Nevareth"
Labels: Clans/Guilds, Games